Oh my gosh this pandemic. Hallelujiah.

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There was a moment in church today where we were asked "If you were given 5 minutes in Heaven, what would you do with it? And what do you need to change in your life right now to make sure this can happen?" I instantly thought of meeting my kids, and from there I thought of specific things that I need to change in my life to make sure I can meet them. The tears were quickly swelling up in my eye sockets as I was thinking about getting to know my kiddos in life. And then the thought occured to me that maybe this version of Heaven wasn't so far away after all, here's hoping!

If I am being honest, this probably would not have been my mindset if it weren't for this longated pandemic we're going through! Can I just say how grateful I am for this pandemic?! There are obviously a lot of people struggling with life right now, some with issues that go far beyond a global pandemic...but if it weren't for this pandemic I would not have come home! My plan was to stay in Hawaii for school, come home for a year or so to get my student loans paid off, and head right back into our big world. Now that I've been home it's like I want my kids to have the same roots I have. I want my kids to live close to their grandparents, I want the family I grew up with to know I am always available to help despite however crazy life gets! It's like being home has re-taught me how to love, and it was extremely unexpected. It's not like life is easy, but missing puzzle pieces keep falling right into place when I didn't even realize the puzzle was incomplete. The Lord has a GRAND plan and I am so grateful He has let me be a part of it!

While in a church meeting today, we were asked to read John 12:1-23 and ask ourselves who/what we might have been like. I feel like I might have been Lazarus in this story. Obviously, I am not dead. And I haven't been resurected through the miracles of Christ...at least not the way Lazarus was. But because the Lord is constantly applying miracles in my life regardless of how tricky or difficult life might get, it seems that I could literally be dead and He would come to save me. 

Here's a picture of my family on the day one of our sister's adoption was finalized. The ceremony was held virtually in our own home in a way that people from out of state could participate in watching this life changing event. Life would probably suck if I couldn't make it home for this special day. Everyday is so special here. 

Every. Single. Day.

Hallelujiah. Thank the heavens for this plan, even the pandemic. Life would suck without it. 

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